Tuesday, December 2, 2003 08:05 a.m.

Mood: aight This is cool. I am at school right now in the library writing an entry. I am here in the morning because it is hella cold outside and I am in here with my friend Marnee. Jillian is not here at school right now and Jacob, of course, is bumbed out. He always is when she is not at school. I think she stayed home since it is the last day that her sister Megan, is in town. That is what I think but Jacob left to go check out her class room. This morning Corinna was treating me different. Like she was mad at me or something. She was ignoring me and when she was giving everyone else a morning hug, she didn't give me one. Corinna are you mad at me or something? Did I do something? Then this Friday our school is having a dance after the first basketball Varsity game of this season. I really want to go because I have been dieing to go out dancing, but no one wants to go too. Corinna said she doesn't know in a like, NO WAY, kind of way. I dunno her attatude toward me has changed for so odd reason. Then also on Sat. I really want to go to the movies to go see Gothica but I don't think any one wants to go. I dunno I have just been feeling left out for some reason, like I missed something and no one wants to tell me what's going on... I don't like this feeling. Also things with Ariel have no been going great. Yesterday, I dunno why, but I was like ignoring him the whole day. I just did, I didn't want to but it just happened. I don't want that to happen today though, I am going to start to talk to him, try to at least. Well I am going to go now. I think the librarian is watching me. Sayonara! ^_^

Monday, December 1, 2003 04:53 p.m.

Mood: Scared/Mad/Sad/Aight I have a bunch of moods right now because Jia just told me the hugest thing that could ever happen! Her dad found out about her journal and checked it out and started to read it! Her pitas journal. It talks about everything that we do when everyone gets together. That was like a huge shock when I found out this morning. And on one entry Jia says,"and for more about what we did check out Yame's journal," and he went and checked mine out and found all that I've done! OMG! And then Jia told me that he was going to tell my dad about my journal. Well for one, my dad knows about my journal but he doesn't read it because he knows it is personal. Two, yeah I know that I have done a lot of things that are written in here that my parents don't know but it is my choose about telling them about what I do or not. And third Jia's dad has no right to mess with me and my dad. This is between me and him and he should just take care of his own daughter. My dad always tells me that he doesn't care what all my friends do, he just cares about what I do because I am his daughter and they are not. So please Jia's dad, if you are reading this, let me handle this situation my own way! Then Jia told me that her and her dad had a long talk about this and that she is grounded for 4 months! That is a hella long time! And this whole thing is not her fault, I was the one to get her into writing a journal like this online. Not to be saying that I was to be grounded to or anything but yeah. Also Jia told me that her dad was like,"Yeah I know Lila's parents and I know her parents would never let her do something like this. She is not that kind of girl, she is innocent." WTF? You do not know me and what I have done. I got HELLA pissed after I heard that. I hate it when people think I am little miss perfect, innoccent, girl who won't do anything like other teens. WELL GUESS WHAT! I AM NOT INNOCCENT SO FUCK OFF! AHHHHHHHH! Sorry I had to get that out. I hate it when people say that about me, and my own friends say that about me too. I hate it I am sorry. Now I know how Corinna feels about being called a blonde and being called stupid and all that. I hate this feeling, yeah I am smart but if you don't know me well then don't judge me! School was aight, nothing but this BIG news happened. I hope Jia will be aight... I am going to go. Bye all.